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Sep. 10th, 2007 @ 10:38 pm (no subject)
 have you ever felt like your life was going in a totally different direction then you ever thought it would. that is how i feel right now. since me and steve decided to move to dover i have never felt so lonely.  i'm miles away from almost anyone i care about. i can't make plans with people who were once and still are considered to me my friends b/c i can't afford the gas to get there! i can't go to school, the only thing i want to be doing right now, b/c i have to pay the bills and save money for a wedding. i love steven and i want to spend the rest of my life with him, but i don't think he relizes how much i gave up just for him.  i sacraficed basically all the experiences of my senior year of high school, which was sopposed to be the best year of my life, for him.  i sacraficed my friends and now by moving down here i have sacraficed my family too! i don't think he'll ever appreciate it because he'll never know about the scrafices i have made to be with him. i know with the decisions i have made i can't go back and part of me wants to change the way things are and another part of me doesn't. i just want the life i once had back! i don't want to live in dover!!! dover fucking sucks!!!!!! i feel like i missed the whole youth experience... i want to act and live like a normal 19 year old and not have the worries i do right now! i just feel lost!
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Jan. 9th, 2006 @ 05:21 am (no subject)
ok i have this really wierd theory on change that has something to do with hair believe it or not

i am currantly content with my life... nothing is bad and everything just seems to be either good or at the least decent... now you're probably thinking what does this have to do with hair... well right now i consider dying my hair again but when i go to do it i can't... i think i'm afraid that if i change something as little as my hair then maybe everything else will change and i dont want it too... its not only me... steven's hair is getting really long and he doesnt want to cut it until at least the summer and he doesnt know why... i'm not sure if my theory is right or maybe i'm just wierd and experiencing lack of sleep who knows. well i guess i should go close my eyes for about a half hour before i have to get in the shower
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Jan. 8th, 2006 @ 10:55 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: boredbored
Current Music: kelly clarkson
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Hedonism |||||| 30%
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Narcissism |||||| 30%
Adventurousness |||||||||||| 50%
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Jan. 8th, 2006 @ 03:45 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: contentcontent
Current Music: Straylight Run
i havent updated in a while so i decided to today.. whats new? nothing really.. its only january and my summer is already packed.. in june steve and i are going to virginia for our 1 year and we are also going to NYC and DC and i know we're talking about a bunch of other stuff too... it should be fun... this weeked i got a lot done and felt really productive. i cleaned my room, threw a bunch of useless shit out and even rearranged it... my bed is no longer in the closet and my room now looks like a half way decent size.. i feel like thats all i have done this weekend is clean bcuz today was one of the weeks i clean steves house.. but hey more money to put towards our trips this summer.

i'm so tired of school.. actually im just tired and dragging in general... i had the most energy this summer than at any other time... everything is just the same day in and day out... i need more adventure or something in my life... do something new idunno... im just bored.. i need to like hang out with people so if i hadnt hung out with you in while or at all and you want to just leave me one or call or something.... kidnap me ANYTHING i just need to do something new.. well this has been fun but i should probably get to bed now... love ya all
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Dec. 23rd, 2005 @ 10:22 pm (no subject)
Passionate


You love with your soul. You give it your
all, that someone in your life is extremly
lucky to have found you. You will love like
none they have ever known. Your love is
amazingly deep.

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<center>You love with your soul. You give it your<br>all, that someone in your life is extremly<br>lucky to have found you. You will love like<br>none they have ever known. Your love is<br>amazingly deep.</center>
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Dec. 19th, 2005 @ 04:46 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: sicksick
Current Music: none
Appearance
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. (other than seeing my roots i dont think my own boyfriend has ever seen it)
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses. (i'm sopposed to)
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[ ] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home. (i was like 7 and got about 1/4 mile away)
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school (not consecutively)
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school.

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation. (making fun of brent. yes)
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches
[x] I've broken a bone. (my pinky)
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[ ] I've been to Poland
[ ] I've been to El Salvador
[ ] I've been to Trinidad
[ ] I've been to Germany

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas. (ALL THE TIME!)
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator(heck yes!)
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing
[x] I've been in a play (numerous)
[ ] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken…well not the car kind of chicken
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding. (face dives are the best... err.. not.)
[x] I've kissed someone of the opposite sex.
[ ] I've kissed more than one person at the same time.
[ ] I've had a psyco bitch as a stalker!

Relationships
[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I ran a red light
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[ ] I've held someone while they died
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I own something from Aeropostale.

Random
[x] I can sing well. (at least thats what steven tells me)
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily. (depends)
[ ] I watch the news. (sometimes)
[x] I don't kill bugs. (I get someone else to kill them)
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person
[x] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar
[ ] I am a sports fanatic
[x] I twirl my hair (yeah, well.. my curls are fun to play with!)
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[ ] love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. (does 8th grade count?)
[x] I laugh at my own jokes. (sometimes)
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish. (holy crap, yes!)
[ ] I love white chocolate (ewwwww)
[x] I bite my nails.
[ ] I play video games (describe video)
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
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Nov. 9th, 2005 @ 05:13 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: sicksick
Current Music: LFO- Girl on TV
5 years ago...

How old were you? 12

What grade were you in? 7th

Where did you go to school? Talley Middle School

Where did you work? who has a job in 7th grade?

Where did u live? at mommoms in wycliffe.. ah the good days

Where did you hang out? mall

How was your hair style? uhhh i dont even remember my hair... i think at that point it was my natural color though

Did you wear braces? nope

Did you wear glasses? nope

Who was your best friend? cyrstal

Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend? didnt have one

Who was your celebrity crush? A.J McLean from BsB Oh Yeah

Who was your regular-person crush? one of my sister's friends i forget his name

Were you a virgin? in 7th grade of course

How many piercings did you have? my ears

How many tattoos did you have? HA funny

What was your favorite band? Backstreet Boys hehehe oh yeah

What was your biggest fear? Failure

Had you smoked a cigarette yet? yuck but yes

Had you gotten drunk or high yet? hehe i started drinkin young

Had you driven yet? i dont think so.... does steering down my driveway count?

------------------------------------NOW-----------------------------------------

How old are you? 17

What grade are you in? SENIOR

Where do you go to school? Concord High School

Where do you work? Circut City

Where do u live? Claymont with mommy and daddy in an apartment uck

Where do you hang out? Steve's House... valley... where do you hang out in DE

How is your hair style? layered.. getting kinda longish

Do you wear braces? no

Do you wear glasses? sure.. when they're not lost

Who is your best friend? idunno anymore

Who is your boyfriend/girlfriend? <3 Steven <3

Who is your celebrity crush? ahhh i think it still is dale jr... hes soo cute

Who is your regular-person crush? i love my steven too much to be attracted to another person

Are you a virgin? im not answering either way... you can think what you want too personal

How many piercings do you have? ears

How many tattoos do you have? none

What is your favorite band? too many to choose

What is your biggest fear? being alone

Have you smoked a cigarette yet? unfortunatley years ago

Have you gotten drunk or high yet? im proud to say that i've never gotton high

Have you driven yet? all the time
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Nov. 2nd, 2005 @ 05:26 pm (no subject)

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Cuddling - 66%
Kinkiness - 72%
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Oct. 24th, 2005 @ 08:03 am (no subject)
im bored sitting in art im not allowed to drop A.P. United States History until after the 1st quarter is over so i have to endur oh well i may not drop it anyway only if the 2nd quarter doesnt go well and then it brings down my GPA oh well idunno.. im sooo tired from the weekend i just want to go home and sleep i think i may but before i can i have math over lunch and then accounting yuck i hate school i cant wait until its over 7 months and 2 days until the last day of SR. Finals thats not soon enough well homecoming was fun went to the game until half time then went to steves for lunch got ready and went to dinner for food that was too salty then ultimately got me sick had fun at the dance i love my steven and thats all i have to say.... the end
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Sep. 3rd, 2005 @ 10:22 am (no subject)
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